Thank you for this clarity and sincere effort to describe the depth of going slow enough to notice big things along as well as small things. In 2000 I made a concerted effort to slow down and go deeper within. I was just looking back at 2011... I was stuck in the same way you speak of in this piece. Stuck with lack of freedom due to parental needs. My dad died in 2018 and my mom in 2020. Then there were two more years of family legal trauma (shattered glass, I get it)...
It's been six months now since that resolved. I'm getting to know a part of myself I've never known before. Hold on. You are creating your future while simultaneously finishing those eternal obligations to those who brought you here. I applaud your depth, and you driving slower in the right lane. Let the others rush off, stressing themselves out. I remember having to drive to UCSD for cancer treatments and that stint of freeway is always 80 if not a bumper to bumper parking lot. Great to get decently behind a big rig on the right, and instead, focusing on the glory of the good that is unfolding in spite of all the tedium.
Thank you for this clarity and sincere effort to describe the depth of going slow enough to notice big things along as well as small things. In 2000 I made a concerted effort to slow down and go deeper within. I was just looking back at 2011... I was stuck in the same way you speak of in this piece. Stuck with lack of freedom due to parental needs. My dad died in 2018 and my mom in 2020. Then there were two more years of family legal trauma (shattered glass, I get it)...
It's been six months now since that resolved. I'm getting to know a part of myself I've never known before. Hold on. You are creating your future while simultaneously finishing those eternal obligations to those who brought you here. I applaud your depth, and you driving slower in the right lane. Let the others rush off, stressing themselves out. I remember having to drive to UCSD for cancer treatments and that stint of freeway is always 80 if not a bumper to bumper parking lot. Great to get decently behind a big rig on the right, and instead, focusing on the glory of the good that is unfolding in spite of all the tedium.